Day 3 ...

So, the 3^rd day and I am still craving my pops.  My mind keeps trying to convince me that ginger ale is not a pop and its okay to drink it but I know better and so I walk past the vending machine that is holding the ginger ale with green tea locked away inside it and say to myself “Not today, you really don’t need it today.”

I limit my only unhealthy drink to either a tea or coffee and I try for it to only one in the day, I failed on Wednesday I had a coffee in the morning and a tea in the evening and the tea was a small cup. I will do better today. I have drank more water than I’ve drank before. Yesterday I saw a co-worker with a drinking jug that would contain the entire days worth of water and asked her where she got it I am seriously contemplating getting it.

This way I don’t have to keep getting up to refill my water bottle and I don’t have to walk past that vending machine.  I’ve been looking up different sites to see which exercises to do to encourage belly fat loss.
So far I’ve read that I should alternate between Sprints and Walking, and strength training.  They didn’t indicate which exercises are better than others but I am still researching.  Monday I begin the exercise part of the journey.  So I want to make sure I read up all about it so I can ensure that I am successful.

I have been given a book to read and told only to read one page a day.  The person who recommended it to me said if I don’t like it and it doesn’t help me that he’ll give me back the money I spent on it. It’s called The Slight Edge.  I will give it a chance.  It won’t hurt me at the very least. 

A little rant to come…..

For those of you who care, love me and want the best for me.
I know me.  When it comes to me, I need to tackle one thing at a time.  I know you are trying to help. 

Please understand that I'm an emotional eater, so making me feel guilty for eating something that is sweet will only put more in my mouth rather than less...To be successful I will need to change things my way which means cutting the bad things out one thing at a time.  

As this is only the 3^rd day I've only just begun, and I've started with drinking pop (soda). I have not had pop since I started, I’ve been drinking water, and until I no longer crave the pop I can't cut out the other stuff, well I could BUT then my resolve for the pop will diminish and I’ll grab that pop. So when I instinctively turn to the water rather than the pop then and only then can I start cutting out the other sweets,  I am going to fall off the wagon and get them once in a while, it's okay to sometimes, sometimes I’m going to need the sugar once in a while.  Just like anything for me it’s going to be a learning curve, I'm looking at the long term not the short term.

I love you for caring!!

Oh and here's today's pictures....

Day 2

 

 



So day 2.....................

Woke up, I must have banged my left hand against the metal headboard of my bed because the pain emanating from the joint of my pinky ring makes me feel a little faint every time I use it.

Which is often when I eat with a utensil, try to write with a pen or pencil, type things a small bruise seems to be evident however not to dark so I doubt it's broken. 

So I've uploaded today's pictures of me... I think I look weird when I smile so it's hard for me to smile right now... maybe in the future.

The Journey Begins................

My area of focus for today, wouldn't look like a big step to anyone but it is for me.  I have had only 1 coffee today yes with sugar, and only water to drink. 

Normally I'd have run downstairs (really it's an elevator that would take me) and bought myself a bottle of pop. 

I will continue to cut pop out of my daily consumption.  Leaving it as a rare sometimes drink. 

So I weighed myself with the staff scale here at work (they have a wellness team)  and I am currently 235 lbs.  I stand at 5 feet 6 inches according to livestrong my ideal weight should be between 115 to 154 lbs.  My actual goal weight is between 135 and 145 lbs.

In the upcoming weeks I am striving to make the following changes:

Actually attend the gym I am paying for, I am looking for things I should be doing while at the gym to focus primarily my belly fat and arms.  I've fairly muscular legs for the exception of the upper inner thighs.

I do plan on walking more to or from work (I really am not that far away from home that it's impossible, just have to get the timing right) but that's further down the line...   If you have any suggestions please comment below. 

Thanks again for your encouragement and support. It means the world to me.

-Jenn

Thank you to all.

I would like to thank my family and friends for your love and support.  I will be chronicling each and every day what went well, what didn’t and my areas of focus was.

I ask that while I am on this journey that if you comment on my progress only constructive comments be made.  I don’t mind being told I am doing something wrong but it’s the manner and wording that tended to unmotivated me.

A Brand New Me...........................

Over the next 6 weeks I will only be able to see and talk to my daughter for no more than 36 hours per week.  I've been told look at it as a break, I hate this term if I needed a 6 day break from my child I wouldn't have had her and just been the best Auntie any of my nieces and nephews ever had.  I know some of you are probably saying she's so negative! And you'd be right I have been negative. I have been negative for a long time. It's time to stop. 

There are things I can change and things I can't.  I am going to concentrate on those things that I can concentrate on and hopefully one day soon the things I cannot change change themselves.  So today June 22, 2016 I am making a change.  Over the next year I am going to snap at least 1 photo of myself to show my progress. 

Over the next 6 weeks I will only be able to see and talk to my daughter for no more than 36 hours per week.  I've been told look at it as a break, I hate this term if I needed a 6 day break from my child I wouldn't have had her and just been the best Auntie any of my neices and nephews ever had.  I know some of you are probably saying she's so negative! and you'd be right I have been negative. I have been negative for a long time. It's time to stop.  There are things I can change and things I can't.  I am going to concentrate on those things that I can concentrate on and hopefully one day soon the things I cannot change, change themselves.  So today June 22, 2016 I am making a change.  Over the next year I am going to snap at least 1 photo of myself to show my progress. 

As of today these are things about myself that I either want, don’t want or need to change:

1.       I am 100 lbs overweight

2.       I have unhealthy eating habits

3.       I think I am ugly

4.       I do not take care of my skin properly

5.       I don’t believe I can do anything right

6.       I suck at money management

7.       I am lazy

8.       I hate doing housework do I don’t do it

9.       I love my job but hate the hours

10.   I don’t want to work outside of the home

11.   I need to take a proper vacation at least once a year

I’ve stopped at 11, there are much more but this is where I am starting.  Small goals small starts, BIG change. 

The main problem that I want to change is how much I WEIGH this is my biggest and longest issue. It’s the biggest because it affects every aspect of my life.  The longest because it’s going to be a very long and hard road to fix as it’s been a long time to get where I am in the first place.

I am going to take advantage of not having my daughter around for 6 weeks to begin this change.  Wish me luck!

Here I begin ………………

 

 

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